Fall Apart.....

So today I was driving home from work when this song came on the radio. It really got me to start thinking about how in troubled times we tend to turn away from God or the church rather than towards them for help. We all have times in which we struggle and the best thing to do is to give it to Him and let His grace just handle it. When everything falls apart let Him wrap His arms around you.


Fall Apart
By Josh Wilson
From the album See You


Why in the world did I think I could
Only get to know You when my life was good
When everything just falls in place
The easiest thing is to give You praise

Now it all seems upside down

(Chorus)
'Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need
God, I want to now You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when I fall apart

Blessed are the ones who understand
We got nothing to bring but empty hands
Nothing to hide and nothing to prove
Our heartbreak brings us back to You

And it all seems upside down

Chorus

I don't know how long this will last
I'm praying for the pain to pass
But maybe this is the best thing
That has ever happened to me

Chorus

Realization.......

Yesterday evening I was driving and had the realization that at some point or another, I have let every single person that has been in my life down in one way or another. This thought and theory came up as I thought that there are some people that really get what they want when it comes to me. I do tend to be soft hearted and give in with the correct people. Well then I got to thinking about one person who ranks up there on the list of being well taken care of when it comes to me and I realized that I had even let them down at one point. Then I started to think about redemption and how by grace we have been redeemed and that we are forgiven. Even those that I have let down have forgiven me for my actions whatever they may be. Even this person that came to mind had shown forgiveness and had moved on from the situation in which I let them down. In the same way, we stumble and fall when it comes to our walk with Christ. We are called to live certain ways and do certain things but we tend to run from those things that we are called to do and do what we want or feel we need to do. We choose to ignore a call to go and be an example or make a difference and run from it. Like Jonah, we find any reason not to go to a place we are supposed to go and do what we are called to do. For those that I have let down and have never said it, I am sorry for my actions or for not being able to fulfill your request. To this one person that came to mind, if you ever figure out that it is you, I am glad that there will be many more years to come to see where you are being called. You my dear brother, are a light that shines bright and anyone that sees the real you will see exactly how bright your heart is and the things that are in store for you because they are great! More importantly, I may not have been able to fulfill one hope of yours but I know that we have had many more times that memories have been made and way more to come than are imaginable. Your journey has only begun and I can't wait to see where it leads you!